Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Model Cars

They took me an afternoon.

Die cast plastic & paint
sift through five pages of plans
I used to build model cars.

With proper care, careful painstaking gluing and painting
they would have taken
days or weeks.

I was too anxious to finish.
It took me an afternoon.

Slap the glue on, make it fit.
Find paint that'll work
and no matter how shabby the little car looked
I always made the dinner time deadline.

So, how now can I be expected
to show up every day and
maintain a job and a regular adult life?


Remembering you is like
revisiting a fire the morning after
and hoping to find embers.
Sifting through the ashes for something
still alive
with the destruction.